Reminice

 Oh man, I really miss the early fall. I am NOT a winter person at all. Can't stand it for the life of me. I am not a snow queen.. So here are some photographs I took that you and I can look at at and wish for the snow to melt!!

 I love how blue everything looks at this lake. I don't even remember the name of this place but it is one of the most common places I go when visiting family.

These photographs kind of bring me hope to re-think and re-evaluate my life. And I really hope I will not be so hopeless and unbalanced as I was in 2018.

I started meditating so I really hope I find help in that. My anxiety is sometimes having way too much control and I am not sure what I want from my life. Meanwhile I just keep drawing cats and talk about ghosts. Hahah!

Me and the Tarot

If you are someone who is into tarot cards, do you ever get that feeling that in some days the deck calls to you? (Don't worry, I'm not insane.) But those of you who can relate, It's pretty interesting how divination works.. And my favorite divination tool is the tarot.

MY first introduction to tarot cards was in my elementary school years. I was a weird, weird kid and I already dabbled into that mystic / paranormal / divination section at my local library.. So, I guess I learned about tarot from one of those books I read.

In my current life state right noww.....I want to practice more tarot card readings so I'll get better with them.

So here is my finance tarot spread that I did today.

I used this spread from mywanderingfool.com:





So summary of spread is ; Good girl get a grip and things will be successful for you. It is mostly positive, rational and very logical set of tarot cards. Page of Pentacles really describes my current situation well. Everything is ok, but you're kind of naive.. Haha.

Oh and by the way, yes I use Rider-Waite deck. I just feel like it's the most simple one to "read" the cards. I don't know, maybe I'm not enough experimental.

I usually take out my deck when I feel unsure and troubled about my future. I only shuffle the cards when I feel like I'm upset about something. And usually thats how it should be. You can only use them for specific problems. Especially spreads. I do think that drawing out "card of the day" is ok, but in the end tarot is in my opinion meant to help you organize in your mind what is already in there.

Not that I don't believe in the supernatural side of the cards. I have to start doing these readings weekly to get better with it. I don't think I can do daily card draw because I don't feel like I need it. And one should never use divination tools if they don't feel like they have a need for it. It not about that something negative would come out of it, but more like the *answers* you might get will not make any sense at all. The cards will seem and *are* random.

So to wrap it up,

I wanted to write this post not as an expert on tarot, but as someone who has a long history with them. (More or less active.. ) And show how my journey with them progresses.

"Call Me By Your Name" Movie..Sequel(?) Thoughts *SPOILERS*

Yes.

I am late on this. But I had to write a short review after I FINALLY got to watch this movie. First of all- I heard about this movie because it was shocking people around the world due to it's explicit sexual scenes.. So, haha, I was naturally curious. My thoughts were: Is it really gonna be *that* shocking? I like shocking ..AND I usually prefer movies that have this kind of feedback, because usually it tells more about our society than about the movie itself..

This is a beautiful movie. It is set in atmospheric 1987 summer in Italy. We get to experience the perfect summer where the characters can bicycle anywhere, read a book under a tree, swim wherever.. Eat fresh fruits from your own backyard. It is perfect.

In Finland this movie was recently screened for high school kids and.. well. Apparently the sexual scenes were too much and the conservative party was upset. I wonder if the shock value would have been this high if the story would be about heterosexual couple..

Nevertheless. If you're reading and you haven't seen the movie.. Here's the quick summary: Elio (Timotheé Chalamet) is a 17 years old teenage boy (in movie 20) and Oliver (Armie Hammer) is a university student who comes to work for Elio's archeologist father over summer. We get to see how their affection develops, until finally it becomes a full blown romance. The kind of first love that you've always wanted.

Now, the sex. No - there is no graphic sexual scenes between the two men (of course we see a naked woman). Both actors had signed no nudity in their contracts, so I guarantee you will not see anything.. It is an erotic movie, but eroticism comes from lots of other things than sex. It is the chemistry and kissing, it is the anger and the fear between the two. I'm sure that most popular movies are way more pornographic than Call Me By Your Name.

Now.. I heard that there is going to be a sequel. Man, I don't stan sequels (most of the time) and I definitely avoid watching them... So when I read about this I wasn't thrilled.

As someone who hasn't read the book I had to go and check if the book has more material for another movie. Technically it does.. But, the resolution will be the same. The two men do not have each other in the book not even after 20 years.  The way the first movie ends already implies that, so we don't need anyone to highlight this fact by making a sequel.

I'm still intrigued.. Only because it seems that the cast and the director will be the same. What worries me that the screenwriter didn't seem enthusiastic about writing the sequel. So.. That's worrisome. But I guess I'll watch it eventually when it comes out!! XOXO